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Thursday, 19 January 2017

Look on the Bright side

There are many things in this world that can bring a person down. At one time or another everyone will go through a period where they may feel like the entire world is going against them. There may be times that all you want to do is lay down and cry. Everyone is different in this regard, and some things that are a catastrophe to one person is of little concern to another. At the end of my first year of college I received a C grade for my Sociology exam. I was over the moon. Couldn't have been happier. However a fellow student of mine was almost destroyed when she received a B grade in the same exam. At the time I found it quite hard to relate, but I like to think I have grown somewhat since then. Everyone has their own challenge in this world, and it is important to remember that something that you consider a simple task could be incredibly difficult for another person.

I began this Blog as a way to express myself and to talk about things that are typically difficult to talk about. Yes, my anxiety makes it difficult for me to function at times. Yes, my hallucinations can have a pretty negative effect on me. The situation I am currently in is not particularly great, I'm finding it difficult to not get frustrated with myself. Having my muscles cramp up whilst I am walking to the supermarket makes me look like Igor. The stutter I  have whenever I speak to someone has a habit of turning into incoherent noises that could easily be mistaken for the mating calls of a camel. To top it off, the sudden involuntary movements of my arms and legs would have Neo from the Matrix impressed at my ability to dodge non-existent bullets. Whilst it is not always the most fun, it can be pretty hilarious. I think having a sense of humor is very important. That's what I would like to talk about today.

Around a month ago I met with a man to discuss my problem and try to determine a course of action. He told me about the human body's natural 'fight or flight' response to danger, and that this was the part of the reason I was in my current situation. The man I went to speak with however, seemed to have a slight involuntary 'tick'. Halfway through a sentence he would shut his eyes and hum. Every time he did this however, my body reacted. A five minute conversation turned into twenty minutes of me repeatedly making 'Baaa' noises and my body twisting violently to the left. Looking back on this now, I can't help but laugh, and I believe there is no reason why I shouldn't.



Any illness or condition of the body or mind can be incredibly difficult to cope with for long periods of time. No two conditions should ever be compared for the reason I gave before; everyone has their own challenge. Since my condition started three months ago, I have let myself get down about it, but that's just not the kind of person I am. I know close family and friends have also been upset about it, and that is sometimes the hardest part. I have a some wonderful people around me, and I would never want to bring them down. I have to say though, one of the best evenings I've had recently was when a couple of friends of mine just had a good laugh about my condition. One such friend now regularly refers to me as 'Twitch', and it still makes me smile. It doesn't mean they don't care, and they never would take it too far. Sometimes, I think you just need to laugh at yourself. It is either that or get dragged down.


One of my greatest inspirations is a man by the name of Nick Vujicic. If you're unaware of who is is look him up on YouTube at one of his school speeches. He made me laugh, he made me cry, but his story is truly inspirational. The thing that I loved so much about him was his ability to make a joke out of his own hardships. I think it is a trait that everyone could benefit from. The world is a harsh place sometimes, all the more reason to stick together and just laugh once in a while.