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Saturday, 28 January 2017

The Unknown

Not knowing the outcome of a situation is stressful to me. I don't like not being in control of my own circumstances. I think its a mixture of Pride and Fear mostly. These last few months have been tough, and I know it is not yet over. I'm happy to report that my closest friends and family have rallied around me, even if sometimes it can be hard for them to see me in my current state. I'm thankful that I have these people in my life. Although, as much as I appreciate their help, I can't but feel like I've lost some of my independence. I'm incredibly stubborn, and that probably hasn't helped things.

I do not know what is going on with my mind right now, and I'm sure there are many others out there that feel the same. It is the not knowing that frustrates me. I have no answers for myself or anyone else at this point. All I do know is that I will be okay, one way or another. Whatever happens I'll survive. Things might be a bit different, but that is the way life works. Change happens, whether you're ready or not. It helps to know that I'm not the only one, if only a little.
I've met people with depression, anxiety, bipolar and various other ailments. All of them are different, and all struggle sometimes. The one thing they have in common is that they keep going, no matter how tough it gets. I've read stories of people with horrible conditions that I wouldn't wish upon anyone, but even these people carry on. You have High-Functioning people out there that force themselves through each day, and you have those that struggle a bit. Again, all of these people carry on.



Mental Illness can be very strange. It is unpredictable and can be hard to cope with. However, people do cope, and I think that's incredible. The Mighty, which is a website list on my Other places to go page, is full of great stories of people living with mental illness, along with other diseases and disabilities. If ever you need a story to pick you up or give you that little extra push in your day, i would highly suggest subscribing.

Feeling isolated is one of the hardest aspects of my current condition. I'm not isolated, I have people that will be there for me if I call, but I still feel this way sometimes. Not knowing what to do to help myself frustrates me to no end, but again I know that I will be okay in time. I'm not a glum person by nature, so I never get too low in all honesty. The important thing to remember, in my opinion anyway, is that things will get better. You'll either improve or you will learn to cope, and both options are fine by me.

Not knowing what will happen or not understanding something is never a reason to give up. No-one knows how things will turn out exactly, and they never will. You might get scared but that's normal As long as people keep going then everything will eventually be okay. Anyway, whats life without a little mystery?