An Introduction

Welcome To A Jackals Voice. The intention of this blog is to be an outlet for myself and others on topics that are not generally discussed...

Monday, 31 July 2017

What it's like to have Anxiety when you're working.

Welcome back to A Jackals Voice.
I've covered this topic briefly before but today I'd like to go a little more in depth in regards to my own experiences. Whilst most, if not all, mental health conditions can have an effect on your career, I'll be focusing mainly on my own anxiety. I'll be talking about my work life prior to my current condition, along with what I do now in regards to blogging.

Before I became ill back in November last year, I worked as a barman in a local pub. Typically the pub was quite busy. Whether it was for food during the day or drinkers at night, we rarely had a dull day. I was both a waiter and a bartender, and so I would interact with the majority of our customers every day that I worked. This meant taking orders, making small talk etc. In any other scenario I would have avoided being in a crowded place such as that, but when I was at work I dealt with my condition quite well. Or rather I ignored it.

My anxiety had started to become a problem before I got my first job. I would steer well away from bars and restaurants if I had a choice, and if not, I'd likely be getting myself a little tipsy just to get past it. It wasn't a healthy way to cope but it worked. The reason I ended up as a bartender was purely out of a need for money and chance. A friend of the family had taken over an establishment and so I went to work there. It wasn't a busy place, but I think that's why I found it easier to adapt. By the time I'd started work at my pub of choice, I already had experience in stifling my anxiety.


Monday, 24 July 2017

Mental Health and Social Media

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Today I've been wracking my brain trying to think of something to write about. It's not that there is nothing to talk about, there are many topics that I could throw a few thoughts at, but I couldn't decide where to start. Then, being the massive procrastinator I am I thought I'd just surf the web for a while. I found a couple articles, all talking about Mental Health and how technology is a problem. This then lead me to Twitter, where people were talking about said articles, which ultimately resulted in several people furiously sending messages to news outlets for various offense's. A topic I kept finding topic was an argument that social media has promoted Mental Illness, and whether or not people agree that Mental Health should be talked about in such an open format.
I expect a few of you can guess which side I favor, but it is an interesting argument, so today I'd like to share my own musings on the subject.


Friday, 21 July 2017

Self Diagnosis

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Today I'm gonna talk about self diagnosis. Pretty much everyone will or has researched their own symptoms from time to time, even with physical conditions. I have to admit that I have done this repeatedly, the research part anyway, and I'll like to address why people do this in the first place, whilst also pointing out how silly it is to do so.

First off, when we notice something strange about our body, we tend to look it up on the internet before we speak with a Doctor. Why do we do this? Well my guess would be impatience. Getting an appointment with your doctor can take weeks, especially if it's only a minor symptom. Sure you could just wait for fourteen days for your doctor to tell you everything is fine, or you could go online and search for yourself. Granted it's much faster, but given the majority of us don't actually have much medical knowledge, we often end up finding the worst possible condition we could have. However, no matter how bad of an idea this really is, it makes sense that we would try to figure it out on our own now, so we can tell the doctor what we think it is. Something my Father used to say still makes me laugh. Whenever he was ill, he'd call the doctor, though he was quite rarely ill. However, every time he called he would try to make an appointment and would be told it'd be two weeks until he got one. He'd hang up the phone, look at me and would joke about it. He'd say; 'Two weeks? I'll either be dead or better by then!'.
It used to make me laugh, but in all fairness he had a point. Of course you had the option to call first thing in the morning to get a same day appointment, but that irritated both of us even more than waiting. I mean, why is it, if I call at 10am I have to wait two weeks, but if I call at 9am I can go today? It doesn't really make sense. As a result, you either make that call, or you search the web for a cure.


Tuesday, 18 July 2017

What is Anxiety?

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Since I made this Blog I've been writing about my own problems, including anxiety, because I wanted to address mental health on a more personal level. I've reached a point now where some people are contacting me, and most of it is very positive so please keep writing! However, those that don't suffer from anxiety, or have trouble understanding others that do, don't seem to understand the difference between being anxious and having Anxiety, so that's what I would like to talk about today.
Just before I start I want to say that this might upset some people given the metaphor and sarcasm I use. Whilst I personally don't believe in 'Trigger Warnings' (Topic for another time) you have been warned.

Now then, I have previously said that I wouldn't go into all the specifics of anxiety as a condition because those that suffer anxiety tend to get tired of reading it. Or at least I do. However, to try and explain to others what anxiety as a condition is like, I think it is a necessary evil.

Thursday, 13 July 2017

When you can't see what is wrong

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Many mental conditions are referred to as invisible illnesses. Conditions such as social anxiety and depression are recognized as this. I myself have talked on how, as a barman, no-one suspected my anxieties. Conditions like that can be hard to handle because, well how do you convince people of something they can't see. That is what I'd like to talk about today.

Wednesday, 5 July 2017

The Truth of my Anxiety

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First off a big thank you to all my readers. There have now been over 2,000 visits to this site. It might not sound like much but it means a lot to me. So thank you all!!

Today I am going to talk about how my own anxiety problems have effected my life. I know previously I've described how my anxiety manifests, but I haven't really explained how this effects me on a day to day basis.
I've had to cope with anxiety for a long time, though this wasn't always the case. When I was younger, maybe 7 or 8, I don't think anyone would have suspected that I would develop anxiety issues to the extent I have today. At that age, I was very outgoing. Probably too outgoing to be honest. Once I was out with my mother and she had to make a withdrawal from the cash point. Without an hesitation I struck up a conversation with the man waiting behind us, and proceeded to tell the man my mother's bank balance.
Further examples were in school. I loved Drama class when I first went to secondary school. I'd quite happily be the loudest person in the room and had no fear at all. Making friends wasn't hard for me, I found that just striking up a conversation with everyone meant you ended up with a lot less trouble later on. I never stuck with just one friendship group, I bounced between them.