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Wednesday, 15 November 2017

A Jackal Walks

Hello and welcome to A Jackals Voice.
It's been almost 13 months since my Panic Attack that started all of this. 13 months since my arms and legs stopped doing what they were told, and my voice stopped cooperating. Whilst I'm by no means better medically speaking, in terms of coping with my condition I've come a long way since those early days. Sometimes I forget how long it's been, other times it's all I think about, but as I said in my last post, I'm not just going to wait around for my doctors anymore. Today was the first day of my new life, and it was a bloody good one.



So today I went on my first solo bus journey since I became ill. I have had real trouble with travel since I became ill, even when it has only been myself and my mother in a car. Before I got this way, however, I used to travel all over the place in taxies and long-distance coach journeys. That changed today went I decided I'd visit some friends in Chester city.
Now it isn't a massive journey, and the bus wasn't exactly packed, but I was very nervous when I left. Whilst I was waiting for the bus I almost bailed, but I knew I had to at least try, and I'm glad I did. I put my headphones on, shut my eyes and before I knew it I was there, in my favorite city, waving at two friends whom I have missed very much. We didn't do anything too special, we just walked and chatted. I took a few photos with my camera whilst we were strolling which are displayed below. You'll have to forgive me, I'm not the greatest photographer, but I had fun nonetheless.




So why am I writing about this? Well, it's simple really. Today I proved to myself that I don't have to be stuck at home. I can go out and I can have a good time. Sure there's no drinking, but I don't think I need drink anymore. I was out for hours with just a couple of friends, and it was awesome.
Today I proved to myself that I can be and am happy with myself. You can only mope for so long before you have to brush yourself off and just get on with it.
That's why I'm writing today, to say positivity is better than any pill they have prescribed, and a couple of friends are all I need. To the pair I saw today, thank you, you have no idea what today really meant.



Now, I'm not saying that you should just be happy that you're alive, well I am, but I know that it can be very hard sometimes for many people. Not all conditions are a case of 'shutting your eyes and jumping', but being positive really can turn an ordinary walk through town into a fantastic adventure.
You've heard a Jackal talk, now you can watch me walk.

That's it for today really, I just wanted to share this with you all. I hope that you all have a day like mine, and if you don't, then you need to determine how to make it so. You're only as trapped as you allow yourself to be, and today, I got to walk again.
Thank you again for all your support and as always,
This has been,
A Jackals Voice.