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Monday, 5 February 2018

I've been Diagnosed!

Welcome back to A Jackals voice.
 A lot has happened since my last post, and to be honest I haven't really been in a place to write about it. However, as of yesterday, I have been formally diagnosed. I have Functional Neurological Symptoms. The short version is that I have psychological problems which are cause neurological type symptoms. The disclaimer is that I can potentially get better through hard work and treatment, but it's not a total guarantee.


So what's the word on this condition? Well, for one it's very difficult to diagnose, as it crosses two areas of medicine which prefer not to involve themselves with one another. Exactly why neurologists and psychiatrists seem so unwilling to cooperate is beyond me. As far as I'm concerned, both deal with the mind, and it's a fact that both neurological and psychological conditions can affect the same patient. There is currently a rather large debate on whether the two areas should merge, but I doubt that'll see much traction any time soon.
Anyway, back to my condition. Physically speaking, there is nothing wrong with my brain or my body, however, my nervous system is somewhat faulty, to say the least. This causes signals to be sent to my brain and body for no apparent reason, which then my brain and body struggle to work with. As my Doctor described it; 'It's more of a software problem than a hardware problem,' meaning, it can be tricky to figure out, but I am physically healthy. I will leave a link to a website below that goes into more detail on the condition, because to list all the possible symptoms and conditions would take, well a website of its own frankly.

As for me, I'm a little uncertain as to how I feel about everything. Part of me is happy because I have the potential to get better. Then again, another part of me is terrified of getting better. Actually, I'm terrified of getting better and having another attack and having to start over. I'm scared I might not get better despite treatment. To be quite honest, I have no idea what's going to happen to me, and I don't know what to do with that.
Before the diagnosis, I had resigned myself to a lifelong condition, and to be told I could get better is a bit of a mind flip. To also know that it's my own psychological problems that are setting it off isn't reassuring, as most of those I've had for my whole life, albeit hidden from view.

                                    

Then again I'm getting ahead of myself. I have a long time to figure all this out, the waiting list is somewhat long. Until then I'm going to try to focus on the fact that I could improve. I'll try to write some more and I may even start making videos at some point in the future, just don't hold your breath.
Anyway, there's the update I've been delaying for so long. Thank you for waiting, it's been a crazy few months.
Until next time, this has been,
A Jackals Voice.

www.neurosymptoms.org